I was never alone

Last night at the roller skating rink I was challenging my fear of falling again while just enjoying myself with my husband and my girls. As I was skating with my daughter there was a tiny little girl, skating the wrong way, towards us. She looked to be three or four years old. I was alarmed and concerned that she was going to get hurt out there alone with it being so crowded with skaters. I stopped and urged her to turn around and we skated next to her helping her every time she lost her balance and or fell down. She would let me help her but then she would act really tough and say “I’m okay”.

She did not seem to be afraid at all and not at all concerned about where her parents were. I asked her and she said her mom was out there somewhere in the crowd skating.  My daughter and I stayed with her for a while till she decided to get off the floor and then I watched her fall again and another adult helped her up. Later she skated by holding hands with another little girl a few years older than her and she told me she had made a friend and I was able to stop worrying about her.

I was so inspired by her courage as every time I saw her lose her balance and fall she would get up and put her arms out with a look on her face that said to the world “I’ve got it, I’m okay, I can do this.” Then this morning Jesus told me that I was a lot like that little girl growing up. I was out there all alone trying to be brave and acting like I was okay and could do it on my own and very aware that there was no parent there to catch me if I fell.

And like that little girl last night I was not alone and unprotected as God had sent others to help me, lift me back up when I had fallen. At the time though, I could not see this as I had convinced myself that I had to do everything on my own. There was no one I could trust as I had been let down too many times by the adults in my life. So I refused the help or accepted it but guarded my heart and never allowed anyone to get too close.

So now the false belief, lie that I am renouncing and repenting for believing all these years is that God was not there and that He would let me walk out so far in faith, vulnerable and trusting Him and He was then going to let me fall. The lie is that my Daddy in Heaven is like my biological father who was always distant, uncaring and uninvolved in my life except for the times he would step in and punish me; take things away from me.

I allowed myself to view God this way and it was so wrong to do so. My Daddy is nothing like my bio father was. His word, His truth says He will never leave nor forsake me. He will be there to catch me. He was always there. He never left me. He is not waiting to punish me; to take what I love away from me.

As I pursue the desires of my heart; I am facing all my fears one by one and my Daddy is right there with me holding  me in His righteous right hand : )

Once and for all I am rejecting and resisting that old lie, false belief  and instead I am trusting my Daddy, my Jesus, my Holy Spirit, His word and His promises for me.

I am not alone and I was never alone.

Nothing is impossible in my life with my Daddy right there holding me close to His side. I am acceptable in His eyes and loved forever in His arms.

Amen

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me

Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”

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