I want to be on fire like she is for Christ.

I bumped into books by Heidi Baker today as I was looking for a Bible to order online. I saw Heidi Baker speak at the Holy Spirit Conference last July here in Las Vegas, NV. I had never gone before and did not know what to expect but Jesus had shown me that I was supposed to go that night.

I will never forget watching her speak. She was clearly filled to overflowing with the Holy Spirit as she would become overwhelmed and have to stop speaking in midsentence. At first I was suspicious of this because it might not have been sincere but what I saw next confimed to me that she was being filled and on fire so to speak : )

As she continued speaking I started noticing little fames of fire coming up off her fingertips as she would point up to heaven and God and even sometimes as she pointed to us in the audience. I kept blinking my eyes thinking that maybe I was tired and my eyes were just getting blurry but every time I would refocus the little flames were there on her fingertips whenever she pointed upwards and outwards towards the audience.

She spoke of the miracles that were happening in Africa as she and others ministered to the poor and sick there. My heart was moved by her passion and compassion for the lost and broken. I longed to be set on fire with the same passion and compassion and power that this woman had and to join her in ministering to others.

I remember coming back to the conference the next day on my lunch hour to retrieve the jacket I left there the night before. I sat there in the sanctuary as a band played incredibly beautiful music and cried out to Jesus to be set free from all that I had allowed to bind me in my life. I asked to be set free from all that I had allowed to crowd out and quench the fire that had burned so dimly in my heart all those years up until then.

Since last July so much has changed and I have let go of so much but I still yearn to be even more free to burn with a fire that cannot be intimidated, cannot be quenched and cannot be ignored.

I want to be on fire like she is for Christ.

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