I matter and I always did matter to God

August 10, 2011

I spent a half hour sobbing and weeping in the bathroom at work today. I saw a homeless person last night and felt such compassion for him. Holy Spirit showed me that I have lived like a homeless person my whole life thinking I did not deserve anything and had to earn and prove that I deserved love, acceptance, provision, protection and that I belonged anywhere. I felt I always had to keep moving and doing as my just being me was not acceptable. I confessed that I had believed this lie my whole life. I repented, rebuked and released it and asked God for forgiveness for treating Him like He did not love and accept me just as I was.

I wept for the little girl I had been who believed this lie and suffered thinking she was all alone for all those years.

I no longer have anything to prove. I have nothing to hide from God, myself or others. I can trust God with my dreams and my future. I have nothing to lose when I trust Him.

I am a child of God who has and has always had incredible value in His eyes.