I want my soul back…

I want to believe, to love, to care again.

I want to walk away from all this stuff that I sold my soul for.

I want to “live simply so others may simply live”.

I want to work with my hands again; by the “sweat of my brow”.

I want to interact with precious people created in the image of God; not with numbers and letters in a computer.

I want to know them, know the man that I married, know the children I gave birth to, and know the home that I live in; know the land I live on.

I want to be connected again to all that is real in my life and release all that is false; that I allowed to distract, entertain and comfort me all these years.

I no longer want to cling to “things” or behaviors that give me a false sense of intimacy so I can hide from the true intimacy with others that I desperately need.

I want my soul back.

Like water running through my fingers…

It’s all like water running through my fingers. I could not control or hold onto all that my Daddy is giving me; even if I tried to.

I cry when I think about everything He is doing in my life; all that I cannot understand or fathom that He is working together for my good. I am overwhelmed when I think about all the people, the circumstances, all that He has brought into my life. All I can do is accept them and all that comes with them; the joy and the sorrow.

I feel like my heart is being stretched open to the point where it hurts and I cannot see how anything more could be put into it or poured out of it. I can only see through my limited vision and understanding but through Jesus Christ and what He gave for me; my capacity to love and to be loved is limitless.

Christ’s love compels me to die to my flesh and allow the Holy Spirit to move me, change me and pour His love out through me to others.

2 Corinthians 5: 14-15

For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And He died for all, that those who live shall no longer live for themselves but for Him who died for them and was raised again.

Heidi Baker

“Jesus wants to fill us to overflowing so that His presence will touch every single person who crosses our path in life. “

“We need the fresh bread of His presence to feed the starving.”

“God is looking for people who are hungry enough for Him alone that they can feed a nation with His presence.”

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